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  My Sinful Longing

  Book Three in the Sinful Men Series

  Lauren Blakely

  Little Dog Press

  Contents

  Also by Lauren Blakely

  Author’s Note

  About

  My Sinful Longing

  His Prologue

  Her Prologue

  Prologue

  1. Elle

  2. Marcus

  3. Elle

  4. Colin

  5. Elle

  6. Colin

  7. Elle

  8. Colin

  9. Elle

  10. Marcus

  11. Colin

  12. Elle

  13. Colin

  14. Elle

  15. Colin

  16. Elle

  17. Colin

  18. Elle

  19. Colin

  20. Colin

  21. Colin

  22. Elle

  23. Colin

  24. Colin

  25. John

  26. Colin

  27. Marcus

  28. Colin

  29. Elle

  30. Colin

  31. Elle

  32. Colin

  33. Elle

  34. Marcus

  35. Colin

  36. Elle

  37. Colin

  38. Elle

  39. Elle

  40. Colin

  41. Elle

  42. Colin

  43. Colin

  44. Colin

  45. Elle

  46. Colin

  47. Elle

  48. Colin

  49. Elle

  50. Colin

  51. Elle

  52. Colin

  53. Elle

  54. Ryan

  55. Marcus

  56. Elle

  57. Colin

  58. Elle

  59. Colin

  60. Elle

  61. Colin

  62. Mindy

  63. Elle

  64. Colin

  65. Michael

  66. Elle

  67. Elle

  68. Colin

  69. Colin

  70. Dora

  71. Lee Stefano

  72. Elle

  73. John

  74. Colin

  75. Elle

  76. Colin

  77. Kenny

  78. John

  Epilogue

  Epilogue

  Also by Lauren Blakely

  Contact

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  Cover Design by Helen Williams.

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  Also by Lauren Blakely

  Big Rock Series

  Big Rock

  Mister O

  Well Hung

  Full Package

  Joy Ride

  Hard Wood

  P.S. It's Always Been You Series

  P.S. It’s Always Been You: Part 1

  P.S. It’s Always Been You: Part 2

  P.S. It’s Always Been You: Part 3

  The Gift Series

  The Engagement Gift

  The Virgin Gift

  The Decadent Gift

  The Heartbreakers Series

  Once Upon a Real Good Time

  Once Upon a Sure Thing

  Once Upon a Wild Fling

  Boyfriend Material

  Asking For a Friend

  Sex and Other Shiny Objects

  One Night Stand-In

  Lucky In Love Series

  Best Laid Plans

  The Feel Good Factor

  Nobody Does It Better

  Unzipped

  Always Satisfied Series

  Satisfaction Guaranteed

  Instant Gratification

  Overnight Service

  Never Have I Ever

  Special Delivery

  The Sexy Suit Series

  Lucky Suit

  Birthday Suit

  From Paris With Love

  Wanderlust

  Part-Time Lover

  One Love Series

  The Sexy One

  The Only One

  The Hot One

  The Knocked Up Plan

  Come As You Are

  Sports Romance

  Most Valuable Playboy

  Most Likely to Score

  Standalones

  Stud Finder

  The V Card

  The Real Deal

  Unbreak My Heart

  The Break-Up Album

  21 Stolen Kisses

  Out of Bounds

  The Caught Up in Love Series:

  The Swoony New Reboot of the Contemporary Romance Series

  The Pretending Plot (previously called Pretending He’s Mine)

  The Dating Proposal

  The Second Chance Plan (previously called Caught Up In Us)

  The Private Rehearsal (previously called Playing With Her Heart)

  Stars In Their Eyes Duet

  My Charming Rival

  My Sexy Rival

  The No Regrets Series

  The Start of Us

  The Thrill of It

  Every Second With You

  The Seductive Nights Series

  First Night (Julia and Clay, prequel novella)

  Night After Night (Julia and Clay, book one)

  After This Night (Julia and Clay, book two)

  One More Night (Julia and Clay, book three)

  A Wildly Seductive Night (Julia and Clay novella, book 3.5)

  The Joy Delivered Duet

  Nights With Him (A standalone novel about Michelle and Jack)

  Forbidden Nights (A standalone novel about Nate and Casey)

  The Sinful Men Series

  My Sinful Nights

  My Sinful Desire

  My Sinful Longing

  My Sinful Love

  The Fighting Fire Series

  Burn For Me (Smith and Jamie)

  Melt for Him (Megan and Becker)

  Consumed By You (Travis and Cara)

  The Jewel Series

  A two-book sexy contemporary romance series

  The Sapphire Affair

  The Sapphire Heist

  Author’s Note

  I originally wrote Sinful Longing in 2015. Late last year, as I began rewriting the first book in this series, I spotted an opportunity to improve aspects of Sinful Longing as well. This version is new and improved, with both a brand-new start to the romance, as well as a reframing of the romantic conflict. What’s more, the romance is now told by Colin and Elle
in first person, rather than third. I hope you enjoy these changes, as well as the additional characters you’ll get to know.

  Also, please note that the events at the start of My Sinful Longing take place concurrently with the events at the end of My Sinful Desire. The overlapping timeline will give you a more detailed view into how the events transpired, all while taking you on a new couple’s romantic journey. Enjoy!

  About

  A sexy, emotional, suspenseful romance novel from #1 New York Times Bestselling author Lauren Blakely…

  Some women are just off-limits.

  But that doesn’t stop me from wanting Elle Mariano. She’s clever, big-hearted and the sexiest woman I’ve ever met.

  The thing is, she’s fighting the demons of her past and do I ever know how hard those are to battle.

  So I try my best to be her shoulder to lean on. Until the night we combust. And one night turns into hot, dirty days, and secret trysts.

  If it all sounds too good to be true, it is. Because once I learn the secret she’s keeping from me, my entire family’s future turns riskier than I ever imagined.

  Especially since the bastards who tried to tear my family apart years ago are tailing both of us now. Our every move…

  My Sinful Longing

  By Lauren Blakely

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  His Prologue

  I don’t claim to be an expert on anything, but life has taught me one hard and fast truth: the moments that change you may take you by surprise.

  All the big moments in my life started out as average, ordinary days. Days where I ate my cereal, drank my coffee, and left home. But by the time day turned to night, the earth under my feet had shifted seismically. My place in the world had shattered, my outlook had boomeranged.

  I’d counted two days like that so far in my life—the day my father was killed, and the day I decided to get sober.

  Little did I know a year ago when I walked into the community center in a beaten-down neighborhood, ready to walk the walk and talk the talk, that that day would be another one of those moments.

  One I never forgot.

  Because it was the start of a new story, the kind that goes like this: So, there was this woman . . .

  When I walked into her office to introduce myself, I figured I’d say hello, let her know who I was, tell her I believed in the center’s mission. I would be polite, professional, and then I’d be on my way.

  I didn’t believe in love at first sight. I didn’t believe in much of anything but family, hard work, and to never bet against the house in Vegas. But when I saw Elle Mariano, her hair pinned up to reveal sparrows inked across her neck, standing at the window watering a tiny succulent plant in a pink terra-cotta pot, I was caught.

  Hook, line, and sinker.

  It wasn’t love.

  But it was something powerful nonetheless.

  It was instant longing.

  She spun around, smiled, and spoke first. “Oh, hey. You must be our newest donor. I’m Elle, and this is Louis Armstrong,” she said, introducing me to herself and the plant.

  That.

  The woman named her plant.

  And I was a goner. She was gorgeous, warm, and so damn easy to talk to. All of that was obvious in those first three seconds.

  Seismically obvious.

  My lips curved into a grin as I answered her. “Colin Sloan, donor and volunteer. Nice to meet you and Louis. What a wonderful world indeed,” I said.

  She set down the green watering tin, some vintage metal thing that looked like she’d picked it up on Etsy. Walking over to me, she extended a hand, and we shook.

  The smile she flashed next—it reeled me in.

  Trouble was, I knew better than to mix business with pleasure. And she—well, she had her own reasons to draw all sorts of lines, as I’d learn much later.

  That didn’t stop me from wanting her though. Nothing could, not even the friendship we developed over the next year.

  That was how it went with the moments that changed your life.

  You were powerless to stop them.

  It was what you did next that mattered.

  But with Elle, I wouldn’t have stopped anything.

  Not even how that friendship would upend my neat, organized life, rocketing it into another moment that would change my life forever.

  Her Prologue

  Friend.

  It’s one of those words that’s designed to make you happy.

  Like chocolate and soft blankets and long, lazy afternoons in the sun.

  Friendship is one of the greatest things in life. I was lucky to have lots of good friends, from my sister to the women on my roller derby team to the people I worked with. I was lucky, too, to count my family among that number. My mom. Even my son at times was like a friend.

  But . . .

  There’s always a but.

  Every now and then, that word can be a double-edged sword. Sharp and dangerous.

  Like when there’s a guy you maybe, possibly, might want to be more than friends with.

  But in the immortal words of social networking, it’s complicated.

  The day I met Colin Sloan a year ago, the afternoon sun streaming through the window as I watered one of my “crooners,” I had an inkling that he might not be like any other donor to the community center.

  And I didn’t think he’d be like any other volunteer either.

  It wasn’t his tattoos, though I do love me some ink.

  It wasn’t his stubble either, but oh yeah, the kind of scruff he rocked was a fave of mine.

  It was his eyes.

  They gave everything away.

  His deep, soulful brown eyes showed me his heart. They revealed him. Those eyes told me instantly that we were a lot alike. He’d been to hell and back. And damn, if I didn’t know the route to that place too. I’d traveled it without a map. Could find my way in the dark whether I wanted to or not.

  His eyes locked with mine, and we sparked. I felt a sizzle that was more than physical. It was a connection. An understanding. And a longing too.

  From that first day, I sensed we had the potential to become so much more. My heart dreamed of more.

  But in my head, I knew we’d be better off as friends. Because I couldn’t risk a relationship. Not after what happened last time. Even though Colin and I never said it out loud, even though we never made an agreement, I knew we had to be friends and only friends.

  And that was what we were for the next year, until the night everything changed.

  But the physical wasn’t what made us so complicated.

  The physical was easy. The problem was everything else.

  It was all the people I never saw coming.

  And the choices I’d have to make.

  Prologue

  Marcus

  Present Day

  I’d done it.

  I’d told them.

  The words I’d practiced for months had made landfall mere seconds ago.

  My name is Marcus. I was born seventeen years ago at the Stella McLaren Federal Women’s Correctional Center. My mother is Dora Prince. I’m your brother. And my father is Luke Carlton.

  Now, as I stood on the street with Colin and Ryan, my half-brothers, adrenaline surged through me.

  Excitement too, and that was a brand-new feeling. One I hadn’t expected in this moment in front of Ryan’s home, where I’d tracked them down. In fact, it hadn’t occurred to me that I would feel so . . . jazzed.

  Unburdened? Yes.

  Relieved? God, yes.

  But thrilled? That wasn’t in my practice tool kit, and Lord knew I’d practiced. I’d absolutely practiced what to say. You didn’t walk up to the family you’d never known, reveal who you were, and say ta-da without a ton of rehearsal.

  Now I was waiting for their reaction. I didn’t know what to expect, but I hadn’t done this for their response. I’
d done it for me. Because I’d needed to.

  And the person who’d helped me most to get to this place was Elle.

  I was so damn glad I’d walked into her office a few weeks ago. Without her, I’d never have found the guts.