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  Once we graduated, we went in different directions work wise, even though we stayed close friends. I launched my app, and Charlotte snagged a plum gig in business development at a Fortune 500 company. The hours were ruthless, though, the environment was cutthroat, and there wasn’t a single ounce of enjoyment. She was miserable but determined not to wallow in it, so she started making plans to do what she loved—run a business based on fun, being social, and hanging out with friends. When she gave notice, she asked me if I was ready to do what we’d talked about the night we’d vowed never to drink keg beer.

  “I’ve been squirreling away my yearly bonuses. Want to open a bar in midtown with me?”

  Flush with cash from the sale, and ready for a new adventure, I’d said yes in seconds. “Can we name the bar after the dogs we had as kids?”

  “Hell yeah.”

  The rest is history. The Lucky Spot is profitable and has expanded to three locations, and we have a blast running it together.

  Charlotte and I reminisce about our early days in business as Gin Joint fills up. The door opens, and a group of pretty, sexy ladies wearing slinky jeans and heels that go on forever pour in. Somewhere in the back of my mind, a part of me says to check them out, but the thought vanishes almost as quickly as it appears.

  Charlotte finishes her old-fashioned just as my bourbon disappears. We move on to seconds as we talk about our most memorable customers over the years. The conversation is free and easy, and it reminds me of why we work so well as friends, and why it’s so much better for our friendship if we don’t ever practice kissing again. Because I don’t want to give this up. She’s the person I can most be myself with, and I like just chilling here with her. We didn’t do a ton of this when Bradley Dipstick was in the picture.

  Like she can read my mind, Charlotte sighs happily and says, “I missed doing this with you when I was with that jackass.”

  “I was thinking the same thing.”

  She tilts her head and looks up at me. “Really?” The expression on her face is one of wonder and surprise. “So it works, then?”

  “What works?” I ask curiously.

  She runs a finger along the side of my hair. “The device I implanted in your head so I could read your mind,” she says in mock seriousness.

  I laugh and squeeze her shoulder. “You got me. Next round on me.”

  “The entire night better be on you.”

  “It is. And yes, I missed this, too—hanging with you when you were with him.”

  “Going to your house. Binge watching TV shows, eating gummy bears or lemonheads, and drinking tequila or wine, depending on what we decided went best together.”

  “We really are quite savvy at our candy-liquor pairings.”

  “We are.” Charlotte sighs happily and scoots closer, almost like she’s going to cuddle with me. “You know, this might sound weird, but I’m glad I caught him screwing that woman. Buying a place with him would have been such a mistake. It was like someone was looking out for me, in a weird way. Does that sound crazy?”

  “Not at all.”

  “If I were with him—engaged to him and living with him—I wouldn’t be able to do this with you.”

  At first I’m sure she means hanging out. But when I feel a brush of her hand against my leg, I wonder if she means something else.

  I look down, and her palm is spread across my thigh. Interesting. I’m honestly not sure when that happened, or why I didn’t notice it before, but her hand is warm, and it feels good, and I suppose I’m getting used to her touching me. Maybe that’s why I didn’t realize she’s been touching me the last few minutes as we’ve been chatting. I’ve quickly grown accustomed to her hands on my body.

  When the waitress strolls by, Charlotte calls her over, and orders a gin and tonic. By the time it arrives five minutes later, Charlotte’s hand is no longer resting on my thigh. It’s moving. She strokes little lines along my leg, and this isn’t just handsy anymore. This is something else entirely.

  I’m caught off guard and completely unprepared for this side of Charlotte—the nighttime, after hours Charlotte, who is very much touching me like we are together, even though there’s no audience now.

  “Spencer,” she says, and her voice is all floaty and happy, “I’m so glad we went into business together.”

  Okay, that makes sense. She’s in one of those happy-go-lucky tipsy moods where she gushes about life being good. I can handle this. She takes a sip of her drink, sets down the glass, and shifts closer. As she moves nearer, so do her fingertips, as they migrate higher up my leg.

  Whoa.

  Was not expecting all this hand action, nor the subtle path she’s taking.

  “Yeah. Me, too.”

  Her fingers brush higher on the fabric of my pants. She’s getting friendlier. Much friendlier. Just how strong are these drinks?

  “I was so miserable before we started it, and now I love what I do,” she says, and her hand on my thigh suddenly acquires a mind of its own. Or hormones of its own. Because it is on a one-way path to my dick. And it’s like someone cranked up the heat in the bar. “Do you know why else I’m glad I’m not with Bradley?”

  “Why?” I ask carefully, as those nimble, eager fingers inch closer. I’m en fuego. My neck is hot. My hair might be up in flames. I could melt polar caps right about now.

  “Because I’m having a great time playing pretend with you,” she says, and her right breast presses against my arm. She’s so soft, and I’m dying to know what her breasts feel like in my hands, how she’d respond to my fingers tracing circles across the sensitive flesh, the noises she’d make when I suck a nipple into my mouth.

  How hard her nipples get from my lips.

  There I go again.

  Exactly where I shouldn’t be.

  Her fingers are not inches, not centimeters, but now millimeters from the outline of my dick.

  I know what to do, and at the same time, I don’t have a clue. My instincts tell me the moves to make, how to touch, how to kiss, how to fuck. But it’s like a page from the playbook is missing. A whole damn chapter even. Because this is Charlotte, and our situation is beyond bizarre. We’re friends and business partners. We’re fake lovers who aren’t fucking. Yesterday, we were sober and practicing kissing, and tonight we were performing for an audience.

  Now all bets are off. It’s just us, and yet we’re still touching.

  Neither one of us is operating at top-notch brainpower, though. I’m tipsy, but she’s highly buzzed. That’s got to be where all this persistent contact is coming from. It’s like the bar is trying to seduce us, to weave its spell on us. It’s dark, and everyone around us is touching, arms around waists, hands in pockets, lips on neck. Gin Joint is pulsing with dirty thoughts. It’s beating with the promise of midnight, and sex after dark.

  My breath flees my chest when her fingers touch my hard-on. Her eyes light up, like she’s opening a gift, and that’s exactly how I want a woman to feel, but precisely how Charlotte should not fucking feel.

  “Charlotte,” I say, my voice a harsh warning.

  “Spencer,” she whispers, her lips pouty and sexy as she lingers on the last letter. When she does that, all I can see is her lips on my cock, her blonde hair spilling across my legs, her head bobbing up and down. It’s a glorious image, and a goddamn dangerous one.

  The tempo shifts again when she simply rests her head on my shoulder, and returns her hands to her lap.

  Like she turned off the light switch.

  “I just like hanging out with you,” she says, her eyes fluttering, like she’s sleepy.

  “I like it, too,” I rasp out. “And you’re tired.”

  “I know. Long day. My pillow is calling out to me.”

  Great. Fucking great. I’m turned on, and she’s sliding into the snooze zone. Her hands have settled down, her touchy-feely side has subsided, and I’m left with a massive fucking erection, and my best friend’s sexy-as-sin body snuggled by my side on a velvet couch.
r />   Fifteen minutes later, we get in a cab. I give the driver Charlotte’s address, because I want to make sure my happy, tipsy, tired friend gets home safely. After the word “Lexington” leaves my mouth, I turn to look at her, and everything happens in a wild blur.

  CHAPTER THIRTEEN

  Her arms are around my neck and her mouth claims mine. She kisses me furiously, like a storm, a lightning storm of kisses raining down from the sky, bursting with heat and sparks and thunder.

  She’s buzzed. I can feel it in the loose, languid way she moves, in the softness of her limbs, and in the panting in her breath. I taste gin on her lips, and the liquor has never tasted better in my life than when it’s mixed with Charlotte. Everything about her bombards my senses—her taste, her scent, her breath. I smell honey on her skin—she used honey blossom from that collection she showed me. Knowing this small detail about her, where this intoxicating scent comes from, makes the blood roar in my veins. Makes me want to know what she’ll smell like tomorrow. How she’ll taste the next day. When she gets out of the shower, what scent she’ll rub into her body, and whether it will drive me wild, too.

  This honey smell is spectacular. Heady and bewitching and all her, and I know whatever she puts on the next day and the next will turn me on with the same raging intensity, because she is so fucking alluring.

  Especially when she sucks on my lip like that. I groan and rope my arms around her, yanking her closer. She’s climbed up on me, straddling me in the back of the cab as it slings us up the avenue, the lights of late-night Manhattan whipping by.

  She says my name again on a smoky moan. It sounds like an orgasm as it leaves her red lips. “Spencer. I want you,” she whispers in my ear. “You got me so wet from that kiss yesterday. I’m so wet right now, too. Everything you do turns me on.”

  Oh God. Oh hell. Oh, fucking save me from myself.

  There is no way. I need to press the brakes. This car is speeding out of control. It’s going to crash in a fiery blaze. I have to stop it.

  “Charlotte,” I warn, and I try to peel her off me, but what’s this now? She’s lifted up her skirt and positioned herself on the outline of my cock, and this is sweet, unholy torture of the highest degree. I breathe out hard as I gaze down at her. The cab slows at a light, and neither one of us gives a shit that the cab driver is three feet away. I can’t care about anything but the pure heat sizzling over my skin as she grinds against me. Her wet panties rub against my erection, and her lips are everywhere on me, like a sensual assault that comes so close to breaking me down. Her mouth moves to my neck, my chin, my jaw, as she travels to my ear. She slides her teeth across my earlobe and nips.

  I moan and grip her hips harder. I fucking love it. I love everything she does. She flicks her tongue against the shell of my ear, and I might as well just wave the white flag and admit defeat, because she’s found my weak spot, and she seems to know it. She kisses me there, and every sweep of her tongue makes me harder, makes me want to haul her up to her home, throw her on her bed, slide into her and show her that if she can drive me crazy with a kiss, I can make her scream in pleasure with my cock.

  She raises her hips, slams back down onto me, and whispers, “When I felt you on my couch it drove me wild. Completely wild.”

  Her hand snakes between us, and she grabs my cock.

  I’m electrified. Every inch of me buzzes with thousands of watts of power because she touches me through my pants. Her eyes shine with pure, unbridled lust as if she’s realizing how much there is of me, and, I hope, how much she wants me. Fuck, I want her to have it all.

  Right now.

  “I want to know how you feel inside me,” she murmurs.

  A thousand responses fill my head. It’ll feel better than anything you’ve ever had. Unzip my pants, wrap your hands around my cock, and let me take you for the ride of your life. You’ll see stars, mountains will move, and the earth will shake.

  The simplest answer, though, is the one I’m dying to utter.

  God, I want to fuck you so fucking badly right now.

  But thankfully, those aren’t the words that escape my lips. Somehow, the rational portion of my brain knows better. The gentleman inside me fights his way out, manages to squirm his way up, and resume control from the manwhore.

  Charlotte is buzzed, and I will not take advantage of Buzzed Honest Charlotte.

  “You’re drunk, Snuffaluffagus. Let’s get you in your jammies and put you to bed,” I say as I grip her hips to lift her off me.

  She’s faster. She moves quickly, parking herself in her seat with more agility that I expected. She sneers, “I’m not drunk,” and it comes out surprisingly crisp and clear.

  I’m not going to argue this point right now. Drunk or not, that was a far too risky moment. The cab slows at the next light, and she yawns loudly, covering her mouth. Her head sinks on my shoulder. Soon, I’m unlocking her door, carrying her to her bed, and sliding off her shoes. She murmurs something as her eyes flutter closed.

  “Water,” I say. “You need water.”

  “Mmm. That sounds delish,” she says sleepily.

  I head to the kitchen, fill a cold glass, and bring it to her. “Sit up,” I tell her, and she manages to scoot back in bed. I hand her the glass. She downs most of it. “Drink it all. I’ll leave another glass on your nightstand. Drink that one when you wake up in the middle of the night to pee.”

  Nodding, she sets down the glass. She throws her arms around me, and tugs me into bed. She tries to pull me next to her.

  “I have to go.”

  “Stay with me. Please,” she says, patting the soft, comfy bed. “Just sleep next to me. That’s all I want.”

  Sleep next to her? With this boner? With her wild hands crawling all over my body? No way. I’m not that strong. I’m not that good.

  “I need to go. I’ve got to feed my cat.” It sounds like the lamest excuse in the world, but it’s actually true.

  There’s a flash of hurt in her eyes. Maybe even disappointment. Then it passes, and she smiles faintly. “Good night, Captain Fiancé. Give the pussy a kiss for me.”

  Oh, how I would absolutely love to.

  Her head hits the pillow, and in seconds she’s snoring. It’s so fucking cute, the little sounds she makes. I scratch my head—how is it possible that her snores are adorable? But they are. I stand and look at her in the dark, the moonlight streaking across her covers, cutting a crisscross pattern through the blinds. Her blonde hair is spread over her white pillow, her blouse slinks down her shoulder, revealing a cherry red bra, and the skirt of her dress rides up her thighs. I could undress her like they do in the movies, or I could leave her in her clothes.

  Undressing her feels like a violation. Instead, I do what I told her I would. I fill her glass of water and leave it on the nightstand. I open her medicine cabinet, grab two aspirin, just in case, and place them next to the glass. I hunt for some paper, and I find a Post-It notepad in her kitchen and a pen in the utensil drawer.

  I write: Two aspirin in the morning, and call me when you get up. I need to take you out for the final hangover prevention step.

  I leave, and I should earn a commendation for self-restraint. I’m going to contact the Guys’ Committee and let them know what I accomplished tonight in the resistance category. I’ll fully expect a gold medal in the morning and, frankly, an awards ceremony, considering the level of difficulty.

  A cab blows past me on Lexington, but I don’t shoot my arm into the air to flag it down. Instead, I turn south and walk home, even though I’m many, many blocks away. I need the time and the space and the distance from those five minutes in the cab when I wanted to fuck my best friend’s brains out.

  This city should take my mind off Charlotte, so I soak it in—the bodegas peddling fruit and flowers, the Chinese restaurants offering greasy noodles, the twenty-four-hour pharmacies selling anything and everything. I cut across town, surrounded by throngs of people, so many still out late at night.

  But when
I unlock my door at one a.m., I’m still turned on. The walk didn’t work. I’m horny as hell. I feel like I’ve taken Charlotte Viagra, and this hard-on is a cruel and unusual punishment for lusting so badly after my best friend.

  Fido meows, then stretches up to greet me, his paws on my leg.

  “Hungry?”

  His tail twitches. I head to the kitchen, open his bag, and scoop out some cat food. It’s this all-natural, organic, eat-like-your-ancestors food. Harper got it for him when I took him in, telling me that store-bought food wouldn’t cut it. My man is addicted to it; maybe it makes him feel like a tiger.

  I set the bowl down, and he purrs as he eats. The dude is so satisfied from a bowl of dry kibble, and a knot of jealousy tightens in my belly. Great. Now I’m envious of my cat because his life is simpler than mine. Note to self: Go to the store tomorrow and order up some perspective, because you’re losing yours.

  I head to the bathroom. I wash my face, brush my teeth, and try to put the evening behind me. Look, it’s not hard to turn down a drunk girl, because that’s just wrong. But it was hard, for some unknown fucking reason, to turn down her. Those things she was saying. Those wicked, dirty words falling from her red lips. They torched a path up my body. They stirred something inside me. Some wish. Some want.

  That kiss on the street was one thing.

  The session on her couch was entirely another.

  But the cab was a whole new wrinkle. She just combusted, like a rocket of lust, firing off in every direction, jumping me, climbing me, grinding on me.

  I wanted it all.

  I wanted her.

  I still do.

  I undress and toss my clothes into the hamper in my closet. Naked, I get into bed, turn off the lights, and park both hands behind my head. Faint sounds of late Saturday night in New York filter through the window, even from six stories high. Shoes clicking on cobblestoned streets, friends laughing, cabs stopping and letting out customers, then picking up other fares.

  Even after zoning in on all that, I’m still insanely aroused.